Meine Liebe

Pain & Sufferings

2011-02-19T23:49:00.000-08:00

Everyone of us have definitely tasted pain and sufferings.
Be it small or big.
Be it important to us or not.
Be it directly pointed to us or went around the bush.

When all of this happened,
At that moment,
Do you ever ask yourself why you're going through it?
Wondering where did you make the mistake that brought you to all of these.

Or why do you have to feel it and go through it.
Do you deserve all of it?

Sure, for a person that have only do bad things in his/her life,
They totally deserve all of those.
Who knows? That after going through it, they will change?

Everyone feels pain.
Once more, I should say, it's a given.
But,
But definitely,
Surely,
I'm sure of it, after all those hard time, painful feelings and sufferings,
There will come a time in which satisfaction will emerge.

One can't tell when satisfaction will come,
But, believe and it will knock on your door.

Isn't it nice to just give up and raise your hands to pain and sufferings?
It's tiring and tough to struggle to keep afloat in the ocean of sorrow, isn't it?
However, have you thought of overcoming it?

If we can beat those pain & suffering,
On the other side, a rainbow full of happiness awaits us.
That's something that I want to believe in.

these feelings..

2009-11-07T03:59:00.000-08:00

Are you struggling to know and trying to accept your feelings?
Why do us, humans are given 'feelings' ?

Is your answer going to be,
"Because its human nature."
"Because we're unique?"
"Because we are living beings and not a table?"

I think its the most common problem there is.
Most of the time we deny, avoid and hide our feelings.

Wouldn't life be easier if we have the heart and soul of a book?
Was it a mere chance or was it all planned from the start?

Should we feel grateful and happy because we have feelings?
Or,
Should we feel disappointed by it?

When we know that those feelings make us angry, happy and sad?

Some might say that feelings make them happy,
That is the reason why they are okay with having it.
But, what about the time where feelings makes you sad?

Feelings that can't reach a person,
Feelings that doesn't even get noticed,
Feelings that are overflowing that you didn't even know what to do with them?

When people doesn't express themselves,
They are called as 'dull and boring'
Nonetheless, who would want to be called as 'attractive and fun',
If they have to sacrifice,
Feeling sad and hurt because of the feelings that they have?
Just so that they are called 'attractive and fun',
Hurting themselves even further.

Having no feelings might look good on the outside,
But, wouldn't we feel empty or missing something if we do?

Is the solution to all of this is by accepting?
Should we take a break from our feelings?
Is it even worth it?

pity..

2009-10-25T06:21:00.000-07:00

When someone don't know about anything that had happened,
They refused to change their mind.
So strongly they refused.
No matter how hard we tried.

Yet, once they know about the truth,
They might changed their opinion.

The first thing that struck in our mind is,
"Why do they changed it?"
"Are they pitying in me?"
That are what our normal reactions are.

It's okay to suspect.
But, why don't you try looking this word 'pity' from another completely different view than what you used to?

Even if that is so,
There's nothing wrong with pitying, isn't it?

Because,
Pitying is taking other's pain and sadness,
And treating it as your own.

So, shouldn't we be thanking that person instead?

letting go...

2009-08-12T16:57:00.003-07:00

Letting go can be one of the most terrifying experience we have.
We all know that letting go is hard,
Especially if it involve ourselves.
Be it letting go of addiction, lost of loved ones or even relationship.

Letting go means you're accepting that,
There's nothing else for you to change the past.
It also means that you are aware of your own thoughts.

One thing that people might think of,
Even if you are able to go back to the past.
You wouldn't be able to do anything different,
Because that's just who you are.
Another chance might not be able to revert,
Or change the big picture that you sought after.
So, is letting go the only answer?

We let go because we're sure that everything's going to be better.
We let go because we're sure that its for our own best interest.
And even if we are in the middle of something that screams at us to hang on to it.
We might feel that its all not worth it.
And that it better for us to let go,
Accepting the fact that you don't want to make it worse any longer.

Life is not about coincidences,
Whatever that happened in the present were caused by something that we did in the past.

However, even if we try to let go,
Putting it aside,
determined and promised ourselves not to think about it,
it will still comes back.

forever friends..

2009-07-19T18:44:00.000-07:00

There are different types of recipes in this world.
All ranging from easy to difficult.
But have you ever encounter on an easy recipe of ‘Forever Friends’ ?

In this world, do you believe in what ‘Forever Friends’ is?
Have you ever dreamed of having your very own ‘Forever Friends’ ?

A friend that will always be in your heart no matter where you go.
And not just anyone that you have a good relationship with,
That you met in your high school, college, university or even childhood days.

'Forever Friends' are the ones that make you laugh,
Wipes you tears before it reaches your cheeks.
'Forever Friends' can also be closer than a sister/brother or even your relatives.
They will listen to everything that you’ve to say even if its insignificant to them.

‘Forever Friends’ also means that I’ll always be there for as long as you live,
Never to leave you, and even if they can’t be with us,
We’re still the one closest to them!

‘Forever’ can be a very long time.
‘Forever’ can also be a joy one felt for a short time and then losing it.

‘Friends comes and go’ that’s what they said.
We don’t forget but people fade easily, that’s the painful truth.

Friends who enter our life,
Always have a reason for that.
Some might stay longer than the other,
Once they achieve their certain goals,
Spending through our teenage years together.
But what can we do other than embracing the memories that we have?

The word ‘Friendship’ is believable,
But sometimes things don’t come out as expected.

Can someone tell me what’s the point of making friends, pledging that undying friendships and putting in so much effort and time maintaining it when its not going to last?

Changes..

2009-07-12T23:40:00.000-07:00

Changes.
The word itself might seemed to be frightening,
But it actually is not that bad.

Everyone changes.
Be it everyday, hour, minutes or even second.
Those changes,
One might not even noticed it,
But to others, its an obvious thing.

We are afraid of it because we never experienced it before.
But, once you've experienced it,
It just feel like as if nothing ever happened.

Maybe if all those changes are too much for you,
Take a breather and think positively.

Its okay to take small steps at a time,
There isn't a need for you to rush,
Cause you've got all the time in the world.

Being yourself is the most important thing.
Yes, people can tell you that they might be unhappy of certain things about you,
Listen to them,
And if you think it make sense, why not change?

However, if just because of changing,
You're not your 'true self'
Isn't it better if you don't change in the first place?
Because it means that you lost yourself.

Changing is a necessity.
Cause we are what we have created.
We keep on looking for the right answers,
For us to be a better person,
Asking ourselves each day , 'Am I happy with what I've become?'

Changes also means we change the way we think and act.
We can't keep things the same old way and expect that life will be different.

hanging on..

2009-07-07T12:58:00.000-07:00

Have you ever found something,
That you really want to hang on to no matter what?
Be it something that you recently know or not.

All of us know that hanging on is never an easy job.
The first thing we all do is always trying to hold on to it.
Thinking of ways to work it all out,
Asking people's ideas and opinions.

Even if we know that its hard,
We hang on and hang on,
Hoping that all of it will be much better,
But little did we know that hanging on is such a tiring thing.

If we persevere and try to make everything better,
Will we get what we want?

When we hang on,
We clenched our teeth and hands,
In order to appear normal in front of everyone,
While we smile, laughed because of their jokes,
Through our frozen faces and eyes,
Its all just to make others and ourselves feel comfortable.
Confirming their suspicions.

However, once we know of the result that we will get,
We will think differently,
And starts to give up,
Thinking that its all the best for us,
But is it really true?

to face it or not to face it..

2009-07-04T22:46:00.000-07:00

In this world we are living in,
All the years that we have lived through,
We met, found and searched for troubles.
Be it minor or not.

We always tell people to avoid it,
As it is what we define as a 'good thing to do'.
But, have you ever listen to the other story?
Story that might change the way you think and answer?

At times, you don't understand why,
Someone do what they do,
Think what they think,
Feel what they feel,
And you will never will,
Because you have never been in their shoes before.

Reasons and excuses for not wanting to face something,
Does changing means that you can't face it?

Revenge becomes hatred,
Hatred bears revenge again,
It will forever be a cycle that never ends.
Knowing so, will you still insist on your answer 'right now'?

One might say that its a good decision,
But, is it really the case?
One struggled when they keep on thinking,
Of the probabilities they have to face.

There's so many ways to solving a problem,
But there are wrongs and rights in all of the decisions,
So, which way should one choose?

Its always when you give up on something,
That you will be sure to gain another thing.
Just because people might think that way,
It doesn't mean that you have to be what they think you are.

Sometimes, even if the way we solve things aren't like our usual style,
It's worth the while to try it,
Cause we never know that it might work out.

real happiness..

2009-06-29T23:51:00.000-07:00

If there’s such a thing called the ‘Box of Happiness’,
Are you willing to spend all of your money to own it?

Life isn’t as sweet as you think it is.
Life is a journey.
One that will never ever end and keep on continuing.

For the whole of our life,
All of us go on searching for happiness.
But the main question is, ‘What is real happiness? Do we know?’

Is it about having fun?
Is it about being with your loved ones?
I guess it depends on each of our own perspectives.

Why do all of us want happiness?
Why can’t we get the happiness that we want?
All I can think of is because happiness starts with ‘ourselves’.

When one search for happiness,
Emptiness is the only thing that awaits you at the end of the day.
But when you don’t even care about it,
It will always come to you and hold you tightly.

Happiness is something that you get.
It isn’t something that you find or search for,
As it will always elude from you.

At times, when one of our ‘Doors of Happiness’ closes,
Another one will always open itself for you.
However, we always stare at that closed door for so long.
Remembering the reminiscence that it left behind,
That we did not realized,
That another ‘Door of Happiness’ is already open right in front of you.

The last question is, 'Have you found your own happiness?'

memories from the past..

2009-06-26T09:27:00.000-07:00

We all creates memories all the time.
That's the fact.
Even if you don't want it,
It will still continue.

When you walk.
When you talk.
When you do things.
At times, all these small little things reminds you of whatever that had happened.

Flashback starts.
Giggles and laughters that can be heard.
Unhappiness that can still be felt.
Tears that rolled down.
All of it are unpredictable and uncountable.

We always hoped that we only remember those good times.
But even if we don't want,
The bad times are included as well.

Sometimes, as we see something,
Hear something,
Smell and taste something,
It reminds us of those happy and sad times that we had gone through.

We don't wish to remember it,
That's why we blocked those memories.
And locked it away,
Deep inside our heart.
And recall it only when they are needed.

Perhaps as we walk forward,
Many things become 'keys' to our heart.
However, those 'keys' might not be the perfect one.
One that can unlock.
One that can help us heal.

It's always hard to let go and ignore of the past,
because it holds the best memories you ever have.

important feelings..

2009-06-24T05:59:00.000-07:00

When things haven't been going well,
When we're tired of everything,
We all want to get rid of everything and never remember it.
But, we don't have to force and push ourselves.
Maybe we should take a break off from it.
Because its rather sad if we come to hate something that we loved.

After all of this happened,
We often ask to ourselves, "Why didn't I noticed?"
If we keep on trying,
If we never give up,
If we keep on looking forward,
If we consider their feelings,
Will our feelings reach them someday?

What am I suppose to do with my life?
I'm still trying to find it out.
I can't help the way I feel.
Isn't there another way?
I believe in taking chances, do you?

turn back time..

2009-06-21T03:25:00.000-07:00

'Turn back time'
These 3 words are special.
People wants it and wished for it.
Even if your life is perfect, there isn't a time where you don't want it not to happen.
Time doesn't stop.
That I know.
That's exactly why we all should treasure all the time we have in the world with each other.
But at times, we just doesn't know how important it is.
Perhaps that is why we don't care about 'time'.
All of us thinks that time is just 'time'.
'We can always do that next time', is what we always tell ourselves.

Mistakes that we all did.
Regrets that cannot be forgotten.
Disappointments that we go through.
Sadness that happened.
All of us hope to turn back time.
Be it to fix some of it or not,
Whatever things that affected us.
But we let those feelings passed by and let time fix itself.

We often wished that our life is a story itself.
One which we write.
One which we can turn every page.
One which we can rewind, forward and stopped.
Rewinding every mistakes and regrets.
Only then we might look at our life in a different light.
Only then we might have a chance to change it cause we know its not right.

Although we know that its impossible to get the time back, we still keep on wishing for it.
How much dose of turning back time is needed to change everything?
Is it always be the best?
Can we said that everything happens for a reason?
It might prolong our stories.
But will all of it turn out to be the same?

Now looking back at my story,
I realized that precious time is slipping away.
Think back at your life and ask yourself,
is your life really a perfect one?
Have you ever wished that time will turn back?

you are not everything that i ever wanted..

2009-06-18T05:33:00.000-07:00

How can you said something that its not true?
Its obvious that you will not keep that promise of yours.
So why bother saying it?
Its all hard on me, but is it hard on you?
Does that short period of time changes everything there is between us?
Please tell me the truth if what’s happening is your wish.
Your happiness is based on my broken heart, are you satisfied?
I ever walked through this path once.
Do you know how hard it is to repeat the same thing all over again?
So please, I don’t ever want the same thing to happen again.
Can people forget something if they want to?
Even if its something important for them.
It hurts if I forget it but its even worse if I remember it.
What should I do?
I treasure the past that has happened.

A Little Pain.

greetings~!

2009-06-17T19:25:00.001-07:00

Hi ya people, my 1st blog post here..
i wrote and made these lyrics since earlier this year, but i only go the chance to show it now..=)

How many countless nights have passed by?
It was past midnight
The glass rolled and cracked
Kicking the door with the heels of shoes
Even the red dress was torn
I tried chasing after you
But all I could ever grab was your shadow
Just like this,
You disappeared from my story
If this is the truth, its too painful
Please just stop this pretense already

chorus:

I don't see the red thread of fate,
That ties our promised fingers together anymore
We might not have promised,
But please, just please
Don't let go of this hand

Even if you hear my voice,
I doubt you'll ever turn your back
If that's so,
What's the use of even trying?
Right now, all I ever wanted was to be
Hold tightly in your hands
Tears that rolled off within the rain,
Starless nights, full of clouds
Please realised it,
that I'm always here
If I tried to grab even the smallest star,
Will my wish be granted?
If I tried to wish hard enough,
Will my wish be granted?

Hoping that you all will like it.